responsibility, my dear, responsibility

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

make that x 1, 000, 000 times.

*fuming*
i hate it when i set a time for all to arrive for rehearsal/ performances, and then one fella strolls in late, with no sign of remorse that she/he's late at all. i dont understand why the rest can follow instructions as set, but she/he cant.

people come in at 2:30pm on the dot - i like.
people come in 10-15 mins after the set time - i can accept it
people come in 20-25 mins late - i can still muster a smile and accept it grudingly

but HELLO, if you're late for more than an hour, i'm really at a loss for how to react.

i was in the toilet in TTSH where i bumped into that slit-eye female organiser, cherry or something. then she was asking if everyone's here already and stuff like that. all i could choke out was, "i'm really sorry, we are still one member short. i'm really sorry that some members aren't responsible enough to be on time."

thank god the performance wasn't too bad... because the organisers gave me a feeling that we weren't as good as we make ourselves appear during the rehearsals... stunts fell while practising and all... but hey, we are only human yeah?

then today, she was late again. #$^~*!#~@! not that i never asked if they needed morning call or anything hor. i called some of them [jenn, justin and alan] before i decided to sms all of them to get them to sms me back so i would know that they are on the way out already and wont be late. i tried my darnest best to make sure everyone will reach at 9:30am at balestier special school for the performance ya. if alan, jessie, roc, justin and grace could, why can't she do it? *sheeesh* i'm really upset and disappointed at the lack of responsibility shown by her.

your latecoming doesn't only affect you, yourself only. it affects us, the team and the team's reputation. it reflects badly on us alright. imagine how the organiser will think of us if we give them heart attacks by saying, "sorry not all our members are here yet" just 5 mins before showtime. unreliable, ill-disciplined, yadayada i dont wanna carry on.

if you cant be responsible and disciplined enough to be trusted to be punctual, then i dont think you should be given chances after chances to perform at all. remember, responsibility, my dear. responsibility.