of heartbreak

it was painful, it hurt.
i'm supposed to be asleep, getting my 9 hours but something woke me up. could be the sudden chill in my room due to the heavy rain, could be the earache i'm getting, could be the puffy eyes, could be anything.

i feel like im ripped apart. through and through. despite i was the one who wanted a break-up, despite it was me who wanted to be single. it wasn't as easy as i thought it would be. i thought i would be strong enough to endure the pain, but i guess i'm not. i thought i wouldn't cry, i thought wrong.

i let go of someone who truly loved me with all his heart. i crushed him by not returning the same feelings & affection he deserve to receive.


all because i didn't know how to let him into my heart again and love once again like i used to.