what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger

let's move on and not talk about what was done in the past to create the mess in the present.
let's just say that all things said would be better documented and that could be referred to in times of confusion. we all learn from mistakes. but let's try not to make any in the first place.

sometimes i think i give too much, to a group of people who doesn't seem to appreciate it. *sigh* and i hope im not the only one giving to the group.

no kelly, cannot think this way. when you are a leader, you not only lead, but you serve them as well.

it was crazy, getting addresses of people so mr boyfriend (drove) and i can go to their houses to borrow their uniforms which they so kindly lent to us to save magnum from the deep shit it's going to be in.

i hate the event company that hired us for the fuji xerox's performance. they are not the ones performing, they dont know how tired and drained we guys are after each set. and they make us perform like 3 times with only perhaps 5-10 mins of rest. are you facking outta ya mind? can't you see us all panting and sweat glistening on our bodies?? mad.

and i hate it when that guy/gay (because he sounds like one, the way he talks i mean) allows the professional dancers to wear OUR nationals uniform for the performance. and i bet they command a higher pay than us. pffft. but im going to make sure that they dont get to wear it for the next few performances. fuji xerox t-shirts, please. or else, the show WON'T go on. yes, it's a threat.

will not talk about it anymore, makes my blood boil even more at the mere thought of it. and while i was trying to keep these performances low-key, seniors all turned up for it. *sigh* my heart sank man. thousand of thoughts ran through my head within that few seconds while the music was playing. were they shocked/unhappy/angry/pissed that people were wearing our uniforms and not following the code of conduct for the uniform? were they here to support us? were they were to watch us fall? *sigh* it's all over now. for now i guess..

let's talk about happier things. like what we did during training. tried toss-up chair and then we tried doing single liberties and extensions on the ground. tried twist-up to hands with dion, then proceeded to doing extension immediately after twisting up to hands. and then we took it even further to doing twist-up hands to single liberty. and it was sooooooooo damn smooth!! man, how did dion do it?!?! it's so amazingly stable and smooth!! man, he's good. we need more bases like him. so next year's nationals will be a splendid and even better one than this year's. i've watched our nationals video over and over again.. and we did it! it's so.. amazing. :) let's make it even more grand and exciting to watch next year!

sadded. look, only one happy chunk of words against the rest of the unhappy chunks of words. things will get better. can feel it