Where do I go?

I still remember when I was in uni, I was so inspired by what I saw at Valentino Retrospective that at that point of time I made a firm decision to get into the fashion industry no matter what. I would do anything, anything to be part of that creative chaos.

But upon my return to Singapore, I just feel that drive slipping away. In fact right now, I feel like a plastic bag drifting through the winds - Aimless, just coursing through life. Did Reality get in the way of my creative pursuits? Why does it feel like I have to put aside my dreams for a 'stable' lifestyle? Do I want a life that's stable and with a job that pays well but doesn't stimulate me at all, or one that's exciting, unpredictable and potentially very satisfying even though the location is far away and pays me peanuts right now?

At this point it feels like fear, is crippling me.
I'm at the crossroads and I don't feel ready to make a decision.

I have a chance to dabble in fashion design, if I prove myself worthy. It's something I've dreamed about but right now, do I have the guts to live my dreams?