Thoughts at 2am

Sometimes I find myself wondering why it's so hard for me to let go.

Maybe it's been ingrained in me that only losers throw in the towel and quit.
Maybe things fail only when you don't try hard enough to make it work.
Maybe giving up is a sign of weakness of character.
Or maybe it's just so un-Singaporean to give up without putting up a fight.
And... You know me. I'm not one who gives up without a good fight.

But you know what... holding on, trying to put the broken pieces together is difficult, it's painful.
But know letting go... it's even harder.
Maybe fear, is the motivating factor behind why we refuse to move on and you cant deny that there's security in familiarity...

But sometimes when you have friends and loved ones who canoodle you with lotsa TLC and positive messages, you need that somone to give you a hard kick in the butt before you finally wake up.. After all, what's the point of trying to hold on to a person when you no longer have his heart? Sad truth but it's one I need to come to terms with.

And so... I say thank you, even though you are at a loss of how you would like to feel towards me.