One thing I'll miss about Brisbane...

I may not have mentioned this but I was really reluctant to head back to Singapore. In fact I was overwhelmed by paranoia. I'm claustrophobic, I fear that the island has gotten too cramped for 5 million people. I fear feeling like a lost tourist in the country where I was born because Singapore's progressing at a really fast pace with shopping centres and buildings sprouting like toadstools after the rain. After immersing myself in the aussie way of life, I've learnt to slow down, take things easy, have a thankful heart and appreciate the little things in life. I was afraid that going back to Singapore would mean reverting back to the person I used to be, someone who's quick to lose her temper when things don't go according to plan, always rushing somewhere and always burning out.

I guess the one major reason why I'll miss Brisbane so much is not just because the pace of life here but because of the church I attend. I think I mentioned before how it felt like home the moment I stepped in with pastors brimming with conviction as they delivered the Word, everyone declaring the goodness of God with each song sung and volunteers in the various ministries working together to make the smoothest path for people to experience a God-encounter.

It's even harder to uproot yourself when I've planted myself there by volunteering to be on the host team. Is it crazy to say that I feel like I have a family here in Hillsong? I feel part of something, getting the auditorium ready for visitors and welcoming people as they walk through the doors. I'm greeted with big smiles and hugs (and occasional teasing) from fellow team members, and also feel included when invited to get-togethers.

But now that I have to leave at the end of the year, I'm no longer upset or afraid. I no longer feel like I have to succumb to a different culture upon my return because I should be living like a citizen of God's kingdom. I know I'll still be able to hear from God as long as I attend services because He is everywhere and always there. :)