K is for Kelly

I've been having mood swings for about a week or so now.

Honestly speaking, I'm not counting down to my departure for Brisbane. Everytime I think about it, I can feel a panic attack coming on. So... I'm putting off thinking about it.

I'm touched by my cousin giving us a dinner treat (2 weeks back if I'm not wrong?) when he knew that my sister and I were going over to Australia to further our studies. I'm heartened that my uncle's throwing us a farewell party in our honour. I'm taken aback by the big angbao they gave us that night. I get irritated when people ask me questions that I don't have the answers to, and I snapped at them (I'm sorry). I get a headache when my mum starts to inform me about all things related to $$$ and how she can't make up her mind whether to follow us to Australia or not (she changes her mind every few days). :( I'm feeling a whole multitude of emotions and I'm trying to... not let it overwhelm me but I don't think I'm coping very well.

So people, don't ask me anything about Brisbane if you can. I'll share in due time when I have a confirmed answer.

Intimidated,
My fear gripes me by the throat.
What now, fight or flight?