K is for Kelly

It's been almost 24 hours, and I still haven't gotten over it.

I'm angry with myself, very frustrated too. I can give myself many excuses on why I didn't pass my driving test; oh one-quarter of my driving lessons are only 70 minutes, almost 85% of my lessons are at night with only 4 lessons being in the day, there were roadworks on the route balloted, the tester was blind enough to not see me check my blindspots, yadayada and the list goes on.

I just find it impossible to accomodate failure in my plan, it just screws up all my plans that I have after my supposed pass at the driving test. And strangely I haven't felt this way for a long long time. I hate how everything went soo smoothly at the warm-up round before the test, I hate how I have to wait to take my test more than a month later, how I have to commute down to BBDC after work (or from CLEO, oh bother I'll elaborate further later) for lessons, how I have to go renew that filmsy piece of PDL, et al.

>=(

And who the hell gets immediate failure for exceeding speed limit?! The tester grabbed my wheel not once, but twice while I was driving! After the test, I was too angry to look through my assessment slip and I was definitely not paying much attention to the post-mortem by the tester at the booth. I wound up asking my colleagues to go through it and see what was my Achilles' heel and it turns out that I'm not much of a safety-conscious driver as I thought I was.

I think everyone was navigating around me as if I was some kind of a landmine yesterday. I was in a foul mood and pretty much snapped at everyone, even the poor girl calling from some dodgy photoshoot studio wasn't spared.

-Conversation went something like this-
Girl: Would you like to come down for a free makeover photoshoot?
Me: No, I'm not interested *forcing a smile in my voice*
Girl: No no, it's really free
Me: No, I'm really not interested and I'm not in a good mood today. In fact, I'm in a really bad mood.
Girl: Oh... *pause for a while* Would you prefer me to call again another day?
Me: No, don't try *slams down the phone*

And I hear Ariel laughing after I did that. That girl has a wry sense of humour.

Anyways, I've purged out all the unhappiness. Maybe like at the end of the year, I would look back at this entry and laugh at myself, how did I ever let a driving test affect me like that... Till then, your roads are (still) not safe.