TGIF!!!

Sorry for the lack of updates, but I've been insanely busy.
Not a bad thing since I like to be occupied and spend my time in a fulfilling manner. :)

Deadlines are coming in fast and furious, and it feels like school all over again. I may be whining and pulling my hair out in frustration but in an almost twisted way... I like it. Hahaha!

This is a whole new learning experience, and I'm gonna enjoy every bit of the ride. I love working alongside with my fellow guest editors, we are all so different but yet we get along so well! =D

So far, one book review, one Her Say piece and in between preparing snippets for the Smart Report, I gotta hafta arrange for interviews (prepare interview questions as well), finish up Hair Clips, test out and write a review on this new phone which I really like. Which phone is it? Well you just gotta wait till you lay hands on the May issue of CLEO ;)

And.....

TGIF!!!!

I need a facial, pronto!

The difference between great people and everyone else is that great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing

When I said that 2009 was gonna rock, I wasn't kidding. Seriously I'm overwhelmed by God's love and favour that He had shown in my life.

Today I got the call I've been waiting for: I'll be working at CLEO starting next Monday! :) I was just writing about it in my prayer journal last night, and I think keeping a prayer journal helps me see how my prayers are all slowly coming true... I'm feeling incredibly blessed.

And I got some new colour in my hair! :) What supposed to be a simple touch and go session turned out to be a creative colouring affair. Too bad my hair's too healthy and couldn't absorb much green colour so it looks more brown than anything haha! Gonna go back to Toni & Guy on Wednesday for cut and perm for their demonstration...

It's late, I wanna go hop in the showers and turn in soon!

Last Saturday, I went to church for service on my own because Ariel had her day packed with tuition classes. This was a continuation of last week's topic about the top 5 needs of men and women, very interesting in fact. The drama that they put up was really funny too! Do you know conversation between a couple will drop by a certain percentage? :) Anyways, we stopped at the top 3 needs, gonna find out what are the remaining 2 next week...

Towards the end of the service, married couples were gathered in front to renew their wedding vows (rings were even prepared by the church!).. I find myself tearing as I see husbands looking into their wives' eyes (vice versa) as they say their vows, and I can only hope I will find someone in future who would love me for a long long time too. :)

Just as I was leaving after service ended... suddenly this thought just came into my head.. "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want, it doesn't mean that they don't love you with all that they have"

It just makes everything a little more bearable...

It's 1.55am in the morning and I'm still kinda intoxicated.

I met up with my mean girls earlier on for dinner at Newton :) I love them all, I really do.

Sipping on sparkling wine while being in the pool... Baring our hearts and sharing stories... I love my girls :) I wanna be here always for them. I can't believe I finished 2/3 of the bottle! It's so fruity... who knew the kick will only come in later hahhaa

I think dinner wasn't enough, my stomach was hurting badly earlier on and I think instant noodles and sweets help in taking away the pain... Actually I'm feeling kinda floaty (or high as anyone else would call it) and I really took effort in backspacing and making sure that this entry is coherent.

Alrighty, I'll take another shower. I'll wake up when my body feels like it tomorrow, this means I might skip gym hahah!

I think receiving a stalk of flower without any rhyme or reason means more to me than receiving a bouquet of flowers on a special occasion. So thank you my friend for your attempt to cheer me up :) Your kindness is appreciated.

Dear God,

I need You more than ever today.

I'm feeling all choked up, and I feel like I've forgotten how to breathe. It's ridiculous, how can something that's so natural and easy become so difficult? I inhale and exhale almost instantaneously, and then I don't know when to inhale again.

You'd think that if I had gotten hurt before, I would be careful the second time around but I'm amazed by my... stupidity? No, make that inability to learn from my previous mistake.

All I want now... is to be able to breathe again.

I... I just can't bring myself to write

Something to remember

"Do the one thing you think you cannot do. Fail at it. Try again. Do better the second time. The only people who never tumble are those who never mount the high wire. This is YOUR moment. Own it."

- Oprah

It's been almost 24 hours, and I still haven't gotten over it.

I'm angry with myself, very frustrated too. I can give myself many excuses on why I didn't pass my driving test; oh one-quarter of my driving lessons are only 70 minutes, almost 85% of my lessons are at night with only 4 lessons being in the day, there were roadworks on the route balloted, the tester was blind enough to not see me check my blindspots, yadayada and the list goes on.

I just find it impossible to accomodate failure in my plan, it just screws up all my plans that I have after my supposed pass at the driving test. And strangely I haven't felt this way for a long long time. I hate how everything went soo smoothly at the warm-up round before the test, I hate how I have to wait to take my test more than a month later, how I have to commute down to BBDC after work (or from CLEO, oh bother I'll elaborate further later) for lessons, how I have to go renew that filmsy piece of PDL, et al.

>=(

And who the hell gets immediate failure for exceeding speed limit?! The tester grabbed my wheel not once, but twice while I was driving! After the test, I was too angry to look through my assessment slip and I was definitely not paying much attention to the post-mortem by the tester at the booth. I wound up asking my colleagues to go through it and see what was my Achilles' heel and it turns out that I'm not much of a safety-conscious driver as I thought I was.

I think everyone was navigating around me as if I was some kind of a landmine yesterday. I was in a foul mood and pretty much snapped at everyone, even the poor girl calling from some dodgy photoshoot studio wasn't spared.

-Conversation went something like this-
Girl: Would you like to come down for a free makeover photoshoot?
Me: No, I'm not interested *forcing a smile in my voice*
Girl: No no, it's really free
Me: No, I'm really not interested and I'm not in a good mood today. In fact, I'm in a really bad mood.
Girl: Oh... *pause for a while* Would you prefer me to call again another day?
Me: No, don't try *slams down the phone*

And I hear Ariel laughing after I did that. That girl has a wry sense of humour.

Anyways, I've purged out all the unhappiness. Maybe like at the end of the year, I would look back at this entry and laugh at myself, how did I ever let a driving test affect me like that... Till then, your roads are (still) not safe.

Thinking of You

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Nothing much to update.... But my stuff from Amazon.com and my iPod nano(RED) finally arrived this week! *beams* I'll put up pictures when I get down to transferring them from my camera... I had a message engraved at the back of it as well. :) All I can say is.. I'm loving it lots! I bought the 16gb one because I've burst the capacity of my 2gb nano that I've been using for like, 3 years or so? and also because... that will take me a much longer time to exceed the capacity of my apple... teehee!

I've started using my nike headphones too for my gym workouts... All I'm lacking now is a pouch to hold the sensor for my nike sports kit, prolly get down to buying it when I drop by iShop or something. :)