Earrings for sale!

EARRINGS FOR SALE!

Preview them here, get them before they go onto Spunkique Couture for sale!
These are one-of-a-kind pieces, that means once they are sold, no more of that same kind!
Both prices and names of the earrings are stated on the picture.

PM me @ kelly_chz@hotmail.com if you are interested to get them.


Bright, cheery coloured wooden beads put together to brighten up your outfit.



Hoop earrings made from beads of different shades, clear transparent, orange, gold and yellow. Looks extremely nice when it catches the sun.

i give up blogging here.
can't a girl blog here without being misunderstood?! fuck.
irritated, infuriated, disappointed, upset, period.
where has all the confident and self-assurance gone to? out the door and bye i guess.

memory flashback

i was at the beach, having a picnic when i suddenly thought of you. suddenly i was transported back in time, where in my mind's eye,i saw us scouting for a perfect area with shade to place our belongings. i could almost faintly hear music playing on the radio.

i saw shengjin and yiwei dunking me into the salty seas when i merely wanted to play with water at the shore. i saw us playing captain's ball not too far away from our mats and having a great deal of fun. then i distinctly remembered the bruise on my cheek when shengjin's coconut head hit me and how yiwei and velvel tried to soothe the pain by rubbing ice on it.

i recalled that we tucked in to a wonderful spread of food, self-service sandwiches, konnyaku jelly, sushi and alot more.

i saw us doing the dance spontaneously for 'that thing you do' when it was playing.

i saw us laughing, having oodles of fun and joy together, enjoying each other's company.

i saw us running across the shore, wanting to rent aqua-bikes so we could go to the island. we paddled really hard and functioned as water-taxis to transport the rest to the island where we took several pictures together.

i saw jiaying wearing ridhwan's cowboy hat and we posed together for a picture-perfect moment. we sat in the hammock, enjoying the moment, watching people go by.

we played soccer, threw frisbee and caught them and collapsed on the mats and chillaxed to the music playing on the radio.

i saw me, wandering around to offer strangers jelly that we couldn't finish as we had too much to eat.

then suddenly it hit me.

those were the best days of my life.

they were the ones who truly knew me, and liked me for who i am. feisty, hot-tempered and all.

i miss them all and most of all, i miss me. the carefree, child-like me. the me who hasn't been tainted by evil things such as responsibilities, unhappiness, disappointments, heartbreaks, accusations and less-than-encouraging comments.

you dont need a title for this one

i know, im 15 mins away from the day after ur birthday :)

another year closer to who you gonna be

So we went to celebrate dear Magdalyn's birthday yesterday! (: I was the earliest, because I went to get birthday cake for the birthday darling and so I waited outside the MRT station for their arrival.

It turned out that none of the guys invited, except Larry for coming.. so yay! Before Larry came to join us, it was more like a girls' meet-up-bitching-session! =p We walked to Far East Plaza and to check out this notebook shop whereby they sell lovely, i mean really lovely notebooks! man, they were really pretty.. It has this 'THELIFESHOP' feel to it... damn cool lah!

BUT IT WAS CLOSED. DAMN.
so the closest we could get to them was to admire them thru the glass windows. so we decided to go and eat cuz our stomachs' were rumbling. TO HARD ROCK CAFE AND BEYOND!!

Grace ah, that kancheong spider called me to confirm if we are coming down to HRC and asked if we wanna sabo Mag anot. So I asked, got good sabos and jialat sabos one anot? Then I decided that... what goes around comes around... I better give her a good sabo. =P

We walked into HRC and Grace greeted all of us and presented the birthday girl with a balloon sculpture in the shape of a pretty flower! :) haha.. then she showed us to our seats and then gave us the menus and got busy with work. All of us ordered set lunches and then we resumed with our 'catching up'... =) Snapped loadsa pictures... hoping for ppl to send them to me so I can put them up here... *HINT HINT HINT VERY BIG ALREADY HOR* heheheh ;)

Ooh, Alan served us too. =D We were all feeling full by the time the dessert came... And then Larry appeared.. hahaha, but he ate really quickly. that fella was hungry as well ;) then brought out the cake.. The waitress made Mag go up to the stage and stand on the chair while we all sang her a birthday song. :D Then Alan presented her with her birthday sundae and then they took a photo together for her to keep. :D hehe, the best part is yet to be.. The waitress shoved the cherry on top of the sundae right smack into depth of the whipped cream and Mag hafta get it out using her teeth. =P So she was whining, "You all bully me!" hahaha then the waitress gave her reply:

"THAT'S WHAT HARD ROCKERS ARE FOR!"

hehe, damn fantastic answer! Then we proceeded to cut the cake up and consumed it slowly.. cuz all of us were very bloated by then. So after paying up, we thanked Alan & Grace for serving us and then headed back to Far East Plaza to take a look at the beautiful notebooks again! Man... damn nice lah... my heart+hand itchy itchy.. wanna buy... *sigh* then went to take a look at handphones... cuz Ju Leen wanna change her phone.. so yups. Headed back to school for training.

Training was alright. Tried new stuff and it was good ;) Really glad that the juniors were picking things up really fast now... Hopefully no more knowledge gap in time to come.. =)


So I was expecting a reply from the editor yesterday... checked my email and he didn't reply me and I was feeling rather upset because I thought he didnt take my complaint seriously...

Just when I was about to write an email to him... I saw this email:



Hehehe, so okay lah. I'm feeling alright now.. I just realised that when you're in the media industry, you will practically have no life. Look at the time he sent that email in to my account. 0.o

ladila~*

slept at 3-4am cuz i was hopping mad and i couldn't get to sleep at all. woke up this morning, feeling a tad better and started drafting the letter to the editor with the help of my supervisor mushroom from the PR company whom I interned at. She's extremely helpful.

She got me the contacts of the news editor and the supervisoring editor for home section from the media directory. She even helped me to make the letter even more impactful and clearer! Wahsey, my initial 1 page complaint letter became a 4-page letter! 0.0 not bad ahh. and she was telling me that it's a baseball game for all the journalists.

3 strikes, and you're OUT! *hooorayy!*

called up the journalist already and explained to her the misquotations, and our conversation went something like that:

Me: Hey -insert name here-

She: Hi

Me: I read the article already and I realised that there were alot of misquotations during the interview.

She: Is it? What are they?

Me: First of all, the first quote "We are anonymous among the student body".
All I say was that I said in a polytechnic, it's different from high school colleges where everyone knows everyone. We are not that recognised in school unless they have seen us performed or us wearing our team jackets.We dress the same as the rest of the students in school, we are no aliens with additional eyes or ears just because we cheerlead and also some days, we dress more casually because we have training later on in the evenings.
I never did make that statement about us being anonymous.

She: But you're anonymous, right?

And she brushed me off with a "I'm in a meeting now, call you back later" - which she never did. She SMSed me to tell me to "feel free to send me a email at -----@sph.com.sg if you have any queries" just a few minutes after I emailed her editors.

bah. sorry darling, it's a tad too late already. ;)

because....

Look what I've gotten in my e-mail box!



I'm looking forward to tomorrow. (:

what the fuck is the use of a title?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
long time never blog already.
THANK GOD FRIDAY'S OVER! (read: MASINA, the only paper this sem) wasn't too bad. hoping for more than a C+ grade. Fucking hate how he gives you the impression that you're gonna score for MASINA because all the assignments were marked rather leniently. Oh i understand, so when he kills you in the examination paper, at least you'll still pass somehow no matter how low you score for the paper. PUI.

BEWARE!

[NOTE: IF YOU CAN'T STAND VULGARITIES, PLEASE SKIP THE REMAINING ENTRY BECAUSE THE NUMBER OF FUCKS YOU WILL SEE WILL SCARE YOU TILL YOU WANNA SHIT IN YOUR PANTS]

I FUCKING HATE MISATTRIBUTIONS!
First it was the straits times earlier this year, then it was lime magazine twice [AGAIN!!] this year and back to the straits times earlier. I fucking HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE misattributions!! And I can't emphasize it more. Didn't they teach you to do shorthand? Din they tell you to bring a tape recorder so you can check back to whatever the person said to make sure there's no inaccuracy? Didn't they teach you to scribble down feverishly the good quotes? What the hell have ya been learning? Have you been sleeping during lessons or what? YOU FUCKING MISQUOTED ME ON ALMOST EVERYTHING IN THAT DAMN PAPER ! Somemore want to take so many pictures of our stunts and all, in the end never use. BLOODY HELL! Don't bloody waste our fricking time if you dont wanna use the pictures!! YOU THINK VERY FUN TO HOLD A 2-2-1 FOR SO GODDAMN LONG FOR YOU TO SNAP PICTURES AH?! KNNBCCB!!!! DON'T WANNA WRITE DOWN YOUR NOTES, THEN MISQUOTE ME, YOU DAMN SMART AH YOU INCOMPETENT JOURNALIST! I hope it's your first time that you're going be reported for misattribution/inaccuracy/misquotation. I hope you get the sack if it's not your first time anymore. Most people - Once bitten, twice shy. If it's not your first time, guess you haven't really learnt your lesson.

I FUCKING HATE IT WHEN YOU GIMME ATTITUDE!
Hello, oei, stop showing me attitude can? You've never shown me the initiative, I've been waiting for you to take lead in things that's in your court. I mind my business, but you don't mind yours. I hafta do your shit. I've once tried to let you do the part, but what you do? NOthing at all. CRAP, you think i your maria ah? And you question my way of doing things without showing respect, I fucking hate your tone of voice. Respect is to be earned, not worn as a rank one hor. I don't like to show black face and I don't like people to show me black face one hor. Make my day suay until I lao sai today. PUI. I think you should be aware of your attitude problem. Maybe we should spend a whole day, taking a video of yourself, so you'll understand how others feel when they listen to you. So authoritarian. What a total turn-off. PFFFFT. Not as if I'm perfect or anything, but at least I try to give my fucking best when I'm attempting to do something. I don't sound sarcastic, I'm sincere and nice. BUT FUCK, YOU MUST STEP ON MY LAST FUCKING NERVE THAT'S FRAYING ISSIT?! Very hard of you to be optimistic and supportive issit? PUI!

FUCKING USE YOUR OWN VOICE TO TALK TO ME, DON'T INVOLVE SOMEONE ELSE
I hate it when XiangMei has to rely on her paedophile of a boyfriend to speak up for her for her rashes. HELLO, you got mouth right? TELL ME LAH!! NEED TO ASK YOUR BOYFRIEND TO SPEAK UP FOR YOU ONE AH? First your mum, then your sis, wahh not bad ah. Involve your whole family when you need to confront magnum huh? Wah, your skin so precious, so baobei one ah? How come you got rashes? Our mats too humble, too dirty for your highness's use ah? Always know how to blame people, dont know how to put the blame on yourself ah? Our mats dirty meh? How come only you got rashes and not the whole team? Why the mats' fault? Why not your fucking fault for having such lousy skin? WEAK LAH YOU. YOUR FUCKING IMMUNE SYSTEM CANNOT TAKE DIRT. MUST BE YOU SWEAT AND NEVER BATHE AND CAUSE ALL THE RASHES ONE RIGHT? Don't blame the mats lah hor. My friend last time cannot eat chicken, eat chicken will get rashes and itch to death. But she kept on eating chicken until she got immuned to it. I think you should do the same lah hor. Don't blame the mats, get used to the dirt. All of us are. Don't be a fucking spoilt brat.

Enough for the day. will continue tomorrow if I feel like it. AHHHHHHHHHHH!! FUCKACHEEEEEEEEEKEN. But then again bad moods last for only 7 hours. FUCK.

too fast, too much

The other day, James just informed me on MSN that we should start preparing for AGM in Oct so as to follow the academic calendar. I was pretty taken back for a while, that would mean that our term would be 10 months or so, as compared to the previous committees who had 12 months. At that point of time, I felt like there's still so much I wanna do for Magnum. I don't know why I felt that way.. it's puzzling..

All these past 10 months, I spent most of the time for Magnum, till the extent whereby I lost trust n faith in myself to do anything right. I hadn't been leading the committee well and all of us were different and separated as a result. And it's all my fault.

I was too short-sighted. I was only concerned about getting the performances and stuff done month by month. Didn't set goals for both the committee and the team, perhaps that's why the team's in such a state now. I hate myself for letting this happen to a team that once stood so strong.

Ever since I took over, stuff that i did included:
- taking the initiative to make a motivational card for people in nationals. I knew it would be a very trying period, and we all need something to keep us going, believeing that we can do it. Just a small token of thought and concern for the team. thanks to ron for fetching it from the printer for all of us.

- arranged for bus transport (with safiq) to attend NTU interhall cheerleading competition so the juniors can get some sort of exposure to cheerleading. Countless trips back & forth Chengyee's office and all... everything turned out alright i guess.. :)

- NP and BA openhouse was quite a headache. corresponding emails over many days, hafta arrange for the school helpers to help transport the mats back n forth the atrium and blk 72, bringing the music where-ever we went for the performances

- Booking of the dance studio during nationals period was a bitch. the one at blk 73's always booked by the cultural dance groups and all, then the one at blk 16's always occupied with s&w people learning dancesports, dancesports ppl practising their dance and nra people as well. was really hard to come across a time whereby we can actually have the studio to ourselves. There was once I forgot about collecting the dance studio keys and I hafta contact the president of nra for the keys.. haha.. those were the days man.

-booking of transport for nationals heats and finals (with safiq).. wrote an letter of invitation to mr chia to ask him to watch our competition.. sourced for sports bra with siti.. sourced for tights with ron.. and hafta get him to collect them for us.. went to kismis lodge with chengyee to check a couple of the rooms and knew about the admin stuff... checked all the rooms with lenny and this other person, should be jessilyn lah hahaha. saw samantha with siti together with chengyee with regards to the shoes..

- went to make the plaques of appreciation for james and lenny for the victory dinner.. came up with the stuff to be engraved on it.. and paid with my own money... *sniffsniff* chengyee lost the receipt!! cheeeedan. and it was a hefty 63 bucks okay.. and that woman didnt bring money despite the fact that we were going to make something... best lah.

- writing proposals for FOC and sports camp performances... and receiving calls from them. FOC a total headache cuz that deborah woman was a total pain in the ass and gave me loadsa headaches while i was working during my ITP period. worrying for the juniors because lenny didn't come down for many trainings which affected their progress in learning the routine before the performances... however the sports camp one was worry-free because james was coaching them.. arghs.. life.

- recruitment drive & cookies sales: a headache, we were all wrapped up with stuff and forgot to make the necessary booking for the booths initially. in the end, i booked the booths, and searched for recipe to bake chocolate chip cookies with. borrowed ron's kitchen to bake and at the same time there were people over at my kitchen baking as well. it was a pretty much fun experience. :) got pictures to show as proof okay. when the day came, me and ron transported the cookies to the clubhouse and packed them for sale. set up booths with ron in the atrium because everyone else was having classes.

- then next came the training session for the freshies to come down. hafta call up 99 people on my list and each rejection came like a slap on my face somehow. so idiotic. how dare those people put down their names for fun and cause me so much pain and misery calling them up. waste of my time man~ then worse was the training session, so little ppl turned up and lenny went on about saying how the turnout of the freshies will reflect on my committee... it was damn hurting at the point of time lah.. we were the ones who were doing all the work and all he did was to look and to comment.. arghs!!

-then the training camp rolled along.. proposal for waiving the fees of dorms was written and approved.. booking of dorms were easily done.. booking of equipment was the hard part.. enlisted bern's help in it and im thankful we had sucha good staff advisor.. haha.. safiq, siti, ron and i went to source for the food to be consumed during the camp... with the canteen vendors and also visited sheng siong... witnessed safiq and siti fighting it out in the car... damn funny :) good memories... then training camp took place... siti, jessilyn, and i went to the dorms to clean up and placed the mats and blankets. we went crazy.. haha :) singing rubbish songs, taking videos/pictures... hehe, was also the game-master for one of the station... was fun lah hahaha :) too bad i didnt carry a camera with me.. wasted. then hafta open the damn dance studio with the aircon not working.. running around like a shengjingbing person trying to get things done... ahaha..

-next was the FAS workshop... we all went as a group to source for fruits and bottled water at little india.. haha.. then in the end, yy did the job in getting the fruits and water for us.. :) then earlier on beforehand, hafta design the certificate for the workshop... also hafta check for the booking of the hall as well with chengyee.. which i received some form of unhappiness reaction from bern cuz i didnt go to him regarding magnum stuff.. on the day itself, wrote names of magnum peeps for nametags and also stuck all the paper that stated each team's name so they can put their belongings there... we also hafta help the various FAS cheerleading teams with cheerleading skills and techniques.. tiring day lah cuz i was sick as well.. and subsequently sick for the next few days. totally sickening.

sigh. i still wanna do alot of things for magnum... maybe it's time to pass it on to someone who's fresher to take over... i'll just try to do my best for the remaining months..

what i could have done:
- get the committee to organise more stuff for members to get everyone involved.
- motivate the committee to serve the team together with me instead of facing it alone
- get everyone in the right frame of mind to the challenges ahead
ARGHS I HATE MYSELF

just as one headache's clearing... another one is clouding my head. lenny has left us some unfinished business and i'm pretty unhappy about it. why does people always do this to me??! hate it when i feel like im facing it alone...

what you learn what you live

If a child lives with criticism,
he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement,
he learns confidence
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship,
he learns to find love in the world.

Big-headed V. I wished I knew what sort of an environment he grew up in so I can think of a perfect treatment for him.

He's always late. He thinks he's king and he can be late whereas others can. Everytime we have training, he's always the one running in late and apologising for making us wait. So yesterday and today, someone else was late whereas the king was early and he was acting all pmsy and like a child, wanting to walk away and all. pfffft. thank god he was told off.

I don't like how he behaves after the performance just because it didn't went as smoothly as it did yesterday, so condescending towards us, acting all-so-mighty and sarcastic. absolutely cannot take his "what team singapore cheerleaders, wo dang dang bu qi (meaning: i'm not up to it)" of course you're not up to it, look at your attitude!! Are cheerleaders supposed to be downright sarcastic and mean? Are they supposed to be optimistic, positive, encouraging and always having a smile for everyone?

And apparently he doesn't know how to bounce back from mistakes/failures. We learn what's wrong, we don't do it again. I did something wrong, I admitted it was my mistake and I made a mental note never to repeat it. At least I don't shirk responsibility for my mistake, avoid everyone and come back to the team one fine day pretending it's all fine and dandy and thinking everyone will accept him back with wide open arms. boy, aren't you dead wrong? Without an apology and an explanation, you can forget about acceptance. We remember the trouble you threw us into, we remember you shirking responsibilities and pointing that finger. Forget about trying to be chummy with us, it will not work darling.

I thought he would have learnt humility and to be more understanding, after training camp 2004 and his attempt at coaching NTU Hall 1 for their inter-hall cheerleading competition, but I guess he did not.

Thank God it's the last performance with him tomorrow. Can't wait for a good performance to shut him up and see him off with. Hate having performances in the middle of examination period. After so much, I still don't know how to best treat him other than making a voodoo doll of him and stabbing it repeatedly till my anger and frustration subsides.

NOTE: Don't get me wrong, I do respect and admire him as my senior in terms of cheerleading skills & abilities. But... it's just the attitude that turns me off big time.

think good thoughts

the next few quotes are from this slip of news article that mrs gan gave to my whole class during the O'levels period... something to always keep in mind. (:

What leads to success
The champions are those who can pick themselves up quickly and keep going even after having failed. They have the ability to manage mistakes effectively. Failures makes everyone at least temporarily helpless, but some people have the ability to bounce back, which helps them achieve more in their work, and their relationships.

Positive mindset
Both the optimist and the pessimist will encounter problems in life. But the optimist is able to weather the circumstances better because of the way he reacts to events, especially failure. Our beliefs can mean the difference between giving up and perservering to achieve. With a positive self-image, a whole new world awaits you. Learned optimism can be a powerful aid and a therapuetic tool in treating disorders, banishing fears and phobias and helping people become better individuals.

perfect wednesday (:

it's been a long time since i last enjoyed myself, really. met up with kurt, my friend from the good ol' days of JI. :) hehehe, remembering the times whereby me, ken and kurt raced up the pagoda and them yelling "god is in the house!" and stuff like that.. it gives me stitches in the side. and because i'm so ever busy, it's hard to arrange for a time whereby we are both free to meet up (he's in NS as well). but i know he's always making the effort to contact me first before we decide where to go. kinda sad huh, we only get to meet once a year, just like how we celebrate christmas, chinese new year yearly. *lol*

Last year we went to NTU Alumni Club to chill... this year we went to....


SETTLERS CAFE!

hehe, it's a cafe with an unique concept of offering board games (so many that you can possibly be buried under them). A good place to go to chill out with friends, laugh at each other playing games such as the ever so familiar Twister, Boggle, Monopoly, Game of Life, Pictionary, yadayada.


This is how cosy it is on the inside... there were alot of people intially, people from secondary schools.. the usual kiddos and families hanging out on a wednesday afternoon for some family/friend/relaxation time. the host quickly welcomed us and ushered us to an empty table. she briefly introduced herself and told us how the cafe and the system here works. Quite cheap eh... play games till 6 for only $6!! where to find such a good deal?!


Ahh... the game menu... so thick! so many to choose from.. what a headache.


ah-hah! u think its a monopoly game board... but it's not! it's settlers cafe's menu :)

at first the host introduced us this card game called the "lost cities" or something, whereby you hafta make investments for the various expeditions. too chim for me. too much calculations, my brain cannot take it(numbers). we tried it twice, with the guidance of the host for the first round. it's quite fun lah, but then i dont like the calculation bit so we decided to play another game..


with so many games to choose over, die lah. let's stick to something we will both enjoy - MONOPOLY!!

boy, was i wrong. I kept on landing in jail, stepping on kurt's property, worse still, it's always those that he built houses in. I was so so broke to the extent whereby I had no money and I hafta mortage some properties and pray that I advance to "GO" smoothly without incurring super taxes. *sigh*


*pouts* very little money i know


Kurt, stop showing off.

BAHH. hehe, we ordered food as well. so yups, our bill came up to only $22! :) imagine a few hours of fun and food for only $22! and it comes with free flow drinks as well *lol* ju leen, if you bring kenny there, no fear! he can drink like a drink for all he wants!

oh, the holland V branch is quite uluated. Located at blk 15, holland drive. for more information, please go to their website.

then next, met up with ron. popped by his new place at redhill for a look before we headed down town to walkwalk and grab dinner. went to sushi tei and boy, i was bloated man! oooh, we also bought the studs and loops for making earrings. :D double yay! and it was nearing 10 and i still didnt wanna go home, so ron had a idea! *lightbulb lights up*

LET'S GO TO MUSTAFA CENTRE!!

so we drove down there.. it was surprisingly not crowded at all! then ron reminded me, "it's a wednesday, not a weekend" oops. so yups, we got his bag sealed up and we started walking around the place.. went to take a look at watches.. and BOY, i love that guess watch i came across (the one above)! really pretty... even prettier price tag.. *save up save up* $188... then went upstairs.. haha, was spraying perfume and smelling them.. by the end of the whole trip, different parts of our shirts smelled differently! hehe =p didn't buy much.. only got my adidas deordorant (it's cheaper here!) and ron got his nike one... headed back home after that...

that was my perfect wednesday... :) how was yours?

Lights, camera, ACTION!!

Time: 7:45pm
In school, in the clubhouse now. Nearly gave myself a heart attack when I recalled that the pompoms were still in school before I slept last night. Waiting for Mr Boyfriend to come so we can head off for dinner together before the filming commences.

Time: 8pm
Yay! He's here, out we go with the pompoms to Bukit Timah Plaza to satisfy my craving for the day - CHICKEN (read: KFC). Had my O.R Fillet burger (yummyy!) + 2 piece original chicken breast + cheese fries (shared with Mr Boyfriend). So full and satisfied! (:

Time: 9:22pm
On our way to Woodlands. Received a call from Nick and my heart went *POMPOMTIAO!!* again. Apparently he said that we are to meet at 9:30pm, but I heard him say 10:30pm!! I even wrote it down and asked him again during the same phonecall to confirm!! WTH lah huh~ so yeah, made a call to all the girls to check with them where they were now and got back to him. Meanwhile, walked around Causeway Point.. Went into Popular & Metro. Was browsing through loadsa pretty handbags and one caught my eye! :D It's a Guess handbag.. really pretty.. the price tag was even prettier.. But my boy got it for me in a heartbeat!! (: *happyhappy* thankyewverymuch.

Time: 10:25pm
Met up with most of the girls. The production crew guys came to pick us up. Ju Leen + Siti decided to join me and Ron instead. Off we go to Blk 131!

Woah, we didn't expect to see so many chee ko pehs guzzling bottle after bottle of beer, with eyes that wouldn't keep to themselves. One even had the audacity to come right up to us and take a good look at us! NEHNEH, never see girls before in your entire life ah~ Come so close, later I dig your eyes out than you know. Then best, there were even more of them, whipping out their camera phones to snap pictures of us!! *grrrs* hello, we know we are mini-celebrities for the day, but I don't want anyone of us in your phone, so you can wank off in the toilet or anything like that. That thought is just plain... disgusting. *URGH*
Let's not talk about those idiotic fellas.

Here comes the pictures:


Siti in the car boot with the pompoms


Mr Boyfriend trying to reverse the car into a parking lot behind the coffeeshop


Syaza + Jessilyn putting on their best smiles for me


with me now!


The full cast! Top L-R: Jennifer, Ju Leen, Siti, Jasmine. Bottom L-R: Aishah, Jessilyn, me & Syaza


Production going on!


Diva Syaza: "Eeyer, why like that one? Make me wait."


Cheers to a glitch-free production! (:


Aishah & Siti


Finally getting started! Poor male leads are worn out from the filming already.


Wah rao, what MTV style lah. more like cabaret style. =X waiting for director to give directions for the next pose.


lawrence giving instructions on how to shoot the next shot


tape's rolling... ACTION!


*cheers* LET'S GO CHELSEA! bahh, whatever


finally a mean girls portrait!

Finally finished everything at 2am. Headed down to Adila's place to spent the night. :)

walk of hope

went for the yellow ribbon walk with magnum peeps like jessie, roc, raine, zhongwei, cliff, lipwee, jessilyn, emily, zhijun, jannies, radhiah, tianyin and me. was late. and what makes matters worse was that i overslept and missed my stop!! cheeeeedan!!

so i hafta run ALL the way to blk 1 where jessilyn and the rest were boarding the bus already. thank god i managed to make it. so i got a seat and sat down, and the bus moved off for changi prison soon after. jessie and roc were sitting in front of me. lovey-dovey narcissistic couple kept taking pictures non-stop with their camera phone. hehe.. so i took the time to travel to the prison and slept soundly.

so it's pictures time!


it's changi prison!!



jannies, tianyin and radhiah looking pretty radiant on a saturday morning (8am+)


me and junior jannies


double couples: zhongwei, roc, jessie, raine


just raine and zhongwei. this guy is sweet. heard he quit dragon boat to join raine in magnum. awwwsh.


the 4 sistas posing with this float thingy. and raine enjoys squishing it so it will hit other people on their heads. *tsktsk* heehee


me and shu! :) bumped into her there


no lah! dont look at the fella's armpit. look at the little boy behind! he has a cap that has a fan! haha, cute invention.. how come i havent seen it around?!


here we are. so many ngeeann people from different clubs, all here to celebrate this movement.


cuz there were so damn many people, jessie had to go up on a shouldersit on roc to give us an idea what was going on on the stage.


in the middle of the walk... yellow ribbons on the trees! (:


the finishing point! (the goodies distribution point) yay! (:


radhiah and tianyin tying their yellow ribbons on one of the 50 artificial trees that are to be placed in the prison to motivate and encourage the prisoners.


jessie's turn


magnum gives ex-offenders a second chance!


we are not the only ones who wants to give a second chance to them. (:


roc, jessie, rad and bern cooling off after the walk and tying of yellow ribbons.


jteam - cast of one more chance on stage

wear your yellow ribbons from 3rd-17th september 2005! (because i'll be wearing mine)
"there is power in a simple yellow ribbon. acceptance, forgiveness and second chances can transform the lives of ex-offenders and their families. all it takes is an open mind and your willingness to look beyong their past. support the yellow ribbon project and give them a second lease of life."

"I'm really still in prison and my love, she holds the KEY, a simple yellow ribbon's what I need to set me free....". - Tie a Yellow Ribbon Round the Ole Oak Tree - Irwin Irvine & L Russell Brown (1973)

what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger

let's move on and not talk about what was done in the past to create the mess in the present.
let's just say that all things said would be better documented and that could be referred to in times of confusion. we all learn from mistakes. but let's try not to make any in the first place.

sometimes i think i give too much, to a group of people who doesn't seem to appreciate it. *sigh* and i hope im not the only one giving to the group.

no kelly, cannot think this way. when you are a leader, you not only lead, but you serve them as well.

it was crazy, getting addresses of people so mr boyfriend (drove) and i can go to their houses to borrow their uniforms which they so kindly lent to us to save magnum from the deep shit it's going to be in.

i hate the event company that hired us for the fuji xerox's performance. they are not the ones performing, they dont know how tired and drained we guys are after each set. and they make us perform like 3 times with only perhaps 5-10 mins of rest. are you facking outta ya mind? can't you see us all panting and sweat glistening on our bodies?? mad.

and i hate it when that guy/gay (because he sounds like one, the way he talks i mean) allows the professional dancers to wear OUR nationals uniform for the performance. and i bet they command a higher pay than us. pffft. but im going to make sure that they dont get to wear it for the next few performances. fuji xerox t-shirts, please. or else, the show WON'T go on. yes, it's a threat.

will not talk about it anymore, makes my blood boil even more at the mere thought of it. and while i was trying to keep these performances low-key, seniors all turned up for it. *sigh* my heart sank man. thousand of thoughts ran through my head within that few seconds while the music was playing. were they shocked/unhappy/angry/pissed that people were wearing our uniforms and not following the code of conduct for the uniform? were they here to support us? were they were to watch us fall? *sigh* it's all over now. for now i guess..

let's talk about happier things. like what we did during training. tried toss-up chair and then we tried doing single liberties and extensions on the ground. tried twist-up to hands with dion, then proceeded to doing extension immediately after twisting up to hands. and then we took it even further to doing twist-up hands to single liberty. and it was sooooooooo damn smooth!! man, how did dion do it?!?! it's so amazingly stable and smooth!! man, he's good. we need more bases like him. so next year's nationals will be a splendid and even better one than this year's. i've watched our nationals video over and over again.. and we did it! it's so.. amazing. :) let's make it even more grand and exciting to watch next year!

sadded. look, only one happy chunk of words against the rest of the unhappy chunks of words. things will get better. can feel it

to 'cher with love

its the time of the year again. to celebrate the noble efforts of teachers on august 31. it's been quite a while since i last dropped by school. security is definitely tighter now, all visitors have to leave their ICs or student passes in exchange for a visitor's pass. it's a bit of a hassle but it's worth it, to see how the school have changed over the year(s) i haven't been back to visit.

a water feature was added beside the school's signboard that welcomes visitors into the premises. walls have been repainted, blocks have been named A, B, C, yadayada etc. everything else seems to be as what they used to be during my school years in CTSS. was bumming around at the umbrella area, watching the discipline master trying to get everyone in the quadrangle in order for the games coming up for students.

i felt alone, so small suddenly. no one else came back to visit. i was floating around the school and no one seemed to be bothered about me, as if i was transparent. oh well...

went up to the hall and the prefects student councillors received me warmly, handed me a programme sheet when they knew i didnt have one and guided me to my seat at the back. received stares from the students as if im two-mouth, three-eared monster. saw my sec 3 english teacher and she slapped my thigh real hard as she greeted me. haha, she's already married and now known as Mrs. Ng to the students. i saw my npcc junior and she recognised me and provided me with the updates of which teachers have left and all that.

i saw her. sitting right in front in the hall, watching the mediocre performance put up by students. stale melodies played by the guzheng group girls (puh-lease, don't play 'feng yang hua gu' when it's not chinese new year, it is just plain... off.). and then song after song by the so-called CT Idol finalists. borrrring *yawn* nothing really fantastic about the vocals of the finalists and boy, i was surprised that the parent support group provided more entertainment than the kiddos themselves! everyone applauded and enjoyed the performance by the parents. =) even i myself felt a smile tugging at the corners of my mouth.

she left in the middle of the performance. i had to speak to her. the last time i saw her as so long ago. i felt like i needed to thank her. walked after her, hoping to be able to speak to her for a short short while. but she disappeared.

walked around up and down the stairs of the school that let me to the staffroom and i couldn't help it but to peek at her pigeon hole. and she's still teaching 3a1 & 4a1 classes. =) asked my ex npcc cca coordinator and then she provided me with leads to where she may be.

i went to the canteen and i saw her. i felt overjoyed, yet at the same time, was at a loss of words. suddenly i didn't know what to say to her.

i called out to her. she remembered me and smiled.
"how are you doing?" we both asked at the same time. i didn't know why, but a sudden rush of tears tried to overpower me but i struggled to maintain my smile and diplomatic answers.

we didn't get to talk much, i wished i knew more about how your life was.

to mrs gan:
you had your unconventional methods to deal with us when we were misbehaving. you always had ur way to intimidate the tough bullies in class and possessed total control over us. you always said that we were angels in your class and total devils in other teachers'.

you've been a great confidant. you've seen the weaker side of me. you saw me break down and cry. you knew of my ambition to make it to a JC, but you told my class that we would do better in a polytechnic. i was upset (me and my warped perceptions), and i thought you thought lowly of us. i studied really hard, so that when the O'levels results came back, i can walk proudly to you and tell you i qualify for a JC, im good enough to be a JC student.

in the end, i chose the polytechnic route. became a mass comm student, a cheerleader in the #1 cheerleading group in singapore and also the president of the best cheerleading group in singapore. i wanted so badly to tell you just how much i've achieved, so you would feel proud of me, so you would feel like the seeds you've sowed have grown and blossomed after your hard work.

i think you saw what kind of a person i was and the environment suited for me then. i'm glad you did and gave me sound advice which i didn't really take note of. but now, im really thankful and grateful for having you in my life. you are truly an inspiration, my guiding light when i couldnt really see at the tender age of 15/16. thanks for all the time you took after school to supervise me doing my A/Emaths sums. thanks for all the little things you've done for us. im still keeping the card that you wrote me before our O'levels examinations. i've kept your motivational article with me as well, to remind me that positive thinking is the key to success (other than hardwork of cuz).

i've come this far, and it wouldn't be possible without you. thank you, so much.